Category: Faith
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An Experience with Faithfulness
I was around 13 weeks pregnant when a friend, upon hearing that we were expecting and knowing of our struggles with infertility, looked at me and asked me, “What has your experience of God’s faithfulness been throughout this journey?” I stared. My mind was blank. The Lord’s faithfulness? The thought had barely crossed my mind.…
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A Letter to my Future Children
When Nicholas and I decided to be open to children from the beginning of our marriage, we both hoped for the best. I could never have anticipated the heartbreak that has accompanied us on our journey towards having a child. I broke down the night after I took a negative pregnancy test during our fourth…
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Entering into the Tomb
During lent of last year, I began praying the Servite Rosary. Rather than five decades of Hail Marys, each meditating on a portion of Christ’s life, the Servite Rosary has seven septets of Hail Marys, each meditating on a particular sorrow of Mary. I fell in love with the seven sorrows of Mary. I found…
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A Cross Not Without Purpose
Infertility is not merely a cross. It is an opportunity to witness to the deeper reality that we as married couples do not get to decide how our marriage is lived out. It is a witness to a motherhood and fatherhood that is lived spiritually rather than physically. It is a witness to the fact…
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Gratitude: The Gift Amidst the Cross
“You have granted me life and living kindness; and Your care has preserved my spirit.” Job 10:12 A few months before our wedding, Nicholas and I sat down and wrote a mission statement for our marriage. We sat down at Ritter’s Ice Cream and created a vision for our family and marriage. It remains a…
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