My experience with discerning religious life and entering into marriage have taught me that every woman is a mother. Every woman is called to be a mother, though her motherhood is expressed differently and uniquely. Reading Edith Stein's Essays on Women has confirmed what I have known in my heart--that every woman, no matter her state in life, is to be a mother. For motherhood is not confined to raising one's biological children, but rather, "to be a mother innately means to cultivate, to guard, and to develop true humanity. Both spiritual companionship and spiritual motherliness are not limited to the physical wife and mother relationship, but they extend to all people with whom woman comes into contact" (Essays on Women).
In our marriage prep, we'd heard about the stresses of NFP. We'd heard about the difficulties of choosing to abstain during times of fertility rather than choosing a form of birth control. We'd heard that NFP could cause fights and at times resentment. Everything we'd heard about the difficulties of NFP prior to our marriage was in the context of using NFP to avoid having. children (or TTA). Clearly, we weren't using NFP to avoid having children at this point in our marriage. It followed then, that there should be no difficulties caused by using NFP, no stress, no strain on our marriage.
This is a post written during my pregnancy with Madeleine that I had not gotten a chance to publish. Many of you may know by now that we are expecting our first child. It took 698 miles, over twelve months of blood draws, over twelve months on progesterone and estrogen, nine months of Clomid, two … Continue reading For Nothing is Impossible with God: An Update on Our Journey with Infertility
I was around 13 weeks pregnant when a friend, upon hearing that we were expecting and knowing of our struggles with infertility, looked at me and asked me, "What has your experience of God's faithfulness been throughout this journey?" I stared. My mind was blank. The Lord's faithfulness? The thought had barely crossed my mind. … Continue reading An Experience with Faithfulness
When Nicholas and I decided to be open to children from the beginning of our marriage, we both hoped for the best. I could never have anticipated the heartbreak that has accompanied us on our journey towards having a child. I broke down the night after I took a negative pregnancy test during our fourth … Continue reading A Letter to my Future Children