When Nicholas and I decided to be open to children from the beginning of our marriage, we both hoped for the best. I could never have anticipated the heartbreak that has accompanied us on our journey towards having a child. I broke down the night after I took a negative pregnancy test during our fourth … Continue reading A Letter to my Future Children
During lent of last year, I began praying the Servite Rosary. Rather than five decades of Hail Marys, each meditating on a portion of Christ's life, the Servite Rosary has seven septets of Hail Marys, each meditating on a particular sorrow of Mary. I fell in love with the seven sorrows of Mary. I found … Continue reading Entering into the Tomb
Infertility is not merely a cross. It is an opportunity to witness to the deeper reality that we as married couples do not get to decide how our marriage is lived out. It is a witness to a motherhood and fatherhood that is lived spiritually rather than physically. It is a witness to the fact that fruitfulness is not limited to procreation. Infertility, understood in this way, is a charism. It is a call to live out fruitfulness even in the midst of barrenness.
"You have granted me life and living kindness; and Your care has preserved my spirit." Job 10:12 A few months before our wedding, Nicholas and I sat down and wrote a mission statement for our marriage. We sat down at Ritter's Ice Cream and created a vision for our family and marriage. It remains a … Continue reading Gratitude: The Gift Amidst the Cross
I am tempted to look at the Lord as Peter did and say, "Master, we have worked hard all night and caught nothing, but at your command I will lower the nets" (Luke 5:5). I am tempted to look at Christ and seeing the strong wind surrounding me exclaim, "Lord, save me!" And yet, our Lord turns to us, "[stretches] out his hand and [catches us], and [says] to us, 'O you of little faith, why did you doubt?'" (Matthew 14:31)