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Update!
In my last post, I announced the lunch of Visitation Bible Study. However, my iPad and computer have since become unreliable, and I no longer have access to the computers at my work. I do plan to update my blog regularly and to keep up with the Bible Study as soon as I am able…
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A Letter to my Future Children

When Nicholas and I decided to be open to children from the beginning of our marriage, we both hoped for the best. I could never have anticipated the heartbreak that has accompanied us on our journey towards having a child. I broke down the night after I took a negative pregnancy test during our fourth…
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Entering into the Tomb

During lent of last year, I began praying the Servite Rosary. Rather than five decades of Hail Marys, each meditating on a portion of Christ’s life, the Servite Rosary has seven septets of Hail Marys, each meditating on a particular sorrow of Mary. I fell in love with the seven sorrows of Mary. I found…
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Infertility as Disease: Accepting and Navigating the Medical Side of Infertility

It was my first Mother’s Day mass after being married. The previous month I had an experience where I was sure I was pregnant. I can’t explain this experience, and no test I took that month was positive. But the next cycle did arrive later than usual and with more pain than normal. During the…
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A Cross Not Without Purpose

Infertility is not merely a cross. It is an opportunity to witness to the deeper reality that we as married couples do not get to decide how our marriage is lived out. It is a witness to a motherhood and fatherhood that is lived spiritually rather than physically. It is a witness to the fact…