I was around 13 weeks pregnant when a friend, upon hearing that we were expecting and knowing of our struggles with infertility, looked at me and asked me, "What has your experience of God's faithfulness been throughout this journey?" I stared. My mind was blank. The Lord's faithfulness? The thought had barely crossed my mind. … Continue reading An Experience with Faithfulness
The Visitation has always been one of my favorite images. I first came to love the Visitation because it tells the story of St. Elizabeth, my namesake. As I grew older, I came to love it because of the beautiful friendship and joy it showcased between two beautiful, God-fearing women--Our Lady and St. Elizabeth. When … Continue reading Entering into the Visitation: Announcing Visitation Bible Study
In my last post, I announced the lunch of Visitation Bible Study. However, my iPad and computer have since become unreliable, and I no longer have access to the computers at my work. I do plan to update my blog regularly and to keep up with the Bible Study as soon as I am able … Continue reading Update!
When Nicholas and I decided to be open to children from the beginning of our marriage, we both hoped for the best. I could never have anticipated the heartbreak that has accompanied us on our journey towards having a child. I broke down the night after I took a negative pregnancy test during our fourth … Continue reading A Letter to my Future Children
During lent of last year, I began praying the Servite Rosary. Rather than five decades of Hail Marys, each meditating on a portion of Christ's life, the Servite Rosary has seven septets of Hail Marys, each meditating on a particular sorrow of Mary. I fell in love with the seven sorrows of Mary. I found … Continue reading Entering into the Tomb
It was my first Mother's Day mass after being married. The previous month I had an experience where I was sure I was pregnant. I can't explain this experience, and no test I took that month was positive. But the next cycle did arrive later than usual and with more pain than normal. During the … Continue reading Infertility as Disease: Accepting and Navigating the Medical Side of Infertility
Infertility is not merely a cross. It is an opportunity to witness to the deeper reality that we as married couples do not get to decide how our marriage is lived out. It is a witness to a motherhood and fatherhood that is lived spiritually rather than physically. It is a witness to the fact that fruitfulness is not limited to procreation. Infertility, understood in this way, is a charism. It is a call to live out fruitfulness even in the midst of barrenness.